New

I feel a little bit weird since i haven't post anything for a very long long time.

I'm back with a new hope, new hair, new aim and other else.

I'm gonna change my life

I'm so happy for myself now

I realized that I can SMILE to everyone *include the one hurt me*

Cheerful surrounding me although sometimes I cried like a little baby

It's just I can't stop being myself

I always sulking when i'm at home and they will give in to me

I'm used to be in that way..but now, I try to compromise with everyone

but don't take advantage on it

I love being myself right now!!!

really2 love it..

hope it will always be like that

I'm glad that i used to be cried cause that painful brings me happiness

alone

I spent a long of time to be alone <i guess>

It's not that I'm too busy until I didn't have any time for you my dear blog

It's just that I spent too much on fb :)

The truth is I haven't fully recovered

I got sick when I arrived my 'kampung'

As result, I can do many things I 'like'

1. I can't go out <miss my friends>

2. get too much sleep

3. dating with beloved bf<doctor>

4. got many PRESENTS from him (yuckss....bitter oooo)

♥ but there's interesting moment: I get to know that there's medicine in pentagon-shape♥

I prefer to get alone from all people eventhough you are my best friend

*I just don't want to be your burden*

(sorry for anyone who get hurt for my attitude and the messages I didn't reply at all)

when heart can't stop talking

It's been a long long time since my last post

I've been away from "social network" about 2 weeks

spent a whole 2 weeks with training and tournament gave me a "free tinted"

I'm willing to do it as I need to get busier than before

I'm not avoiding my problems but i want to find calmness 

I need time to think about it

I didn't remember how many times that i should say that i didn't know myself

sometimes I get happy but at the same time i'll be sad for some reason

for someone know my stories, thank you very2 much for everything

i appreciate the advices and encouraging words that been given

i'm grateful that i have that opportunity to get know all of you

If i gave a bit of smile in my day when i'm sad, it's all because of YOU 

I knew that i shouldn't make someone that love me sad just because i'm not in my mood

I can't stop writing as my heart keep talking

I really need someone beside me but i don't want to be a burden for them

for this time, i should be independent like before

I can't depend on others everytime

If you give me too many hope, i'll depend on you forever

I don't want to be like that and i know that I can change myself again

I need to stop at here before i write nonsense 

good luck, hamz ;)

at last

I'm waiting for a long time to post on my bloggy

but then, all of the ideas had been vanished by the time

huhuhuhu :(

*cta basi laaa

too much hope

sometimes the reality is not the same as we planned

sometimes it become better

but in the same time we need to prepare for the negative side

not all your wishes will come true

not all of your dreams will become yours

you need to think of others

you can't be greedy

i turned into the "old" me

it's just like yesterday and the moment just now were too fast

until i can't enjoy that feeling

old memories played on  mind

being hypocrite is the expertise

it's all LIE when those bad things that been said to you

karma is EXIST

it's SHOWS the feed back right now

heart also fed up owww

I'm not talking much

but i feel it inside of my heart

SILENT

yup, it's the best due to my condition

can't talk

can't eat

can't do everything that i love 

I'm following your way

people are the same

i'm not gonna believe you easily :p

letter to the heart

what do you feel when you can't do something you want?

what do you feel when you can't say following your heart?

what do you feel when you can't find the right direction?

what should you do if you're in that SHOES?

some presence may bring happiness to someone

but sometimes it brings FEAR and PROBLEM

why that presence choose this time?

 the right and accurate answer cannot be found

Please give the ANSWER SCHEME!!!

confusion is the only answer right now

many things linger your surrounding

the best option that been taken may be the worst for others

it cause they didn't feel what you feel

they didn't know what really happen

choose 1:

cruel to others?

@

cruel to yourself?

@

cruel to both? 

yeah!!!!

they might say you're cruel while you're cruel to yourself

they might say you're bad person while you're nice to them secretly

they might say you hurt the heart while your heart is broken at the same time

what's the point?

it's not useless

bring the happiness to everyone while you're still alive

don't decrease your spirit but you can increase your efforts

  

 just ignore those negative judgement

let them say what they want

let them think who you are

as long as you become your true self 

DO what you think the BEST for everyone

don't keep saying sorry for something you didn't do

You're the best person for your own heart

you know who you are

Cheers for yourself

Please find for your own happiness

don't ruin others life

*Ask yourself who you are

you can find the answer at http://www.deepinsideyourheart.com